Spaun is dead

forever blue

spaunisdead — Fri, 07 Oct 2011 19:15:07 +0000

when i love blue, don’t offer me red or green or orange… just let me drawn in blue, i want blue in my life. event if it’s forever blue.. so let it be blue… love you blue!

knight and dragon

spaunisdead — Fri, 12 Aug 2011 18:06:20 +0000

address me as an evil, you really know how to turn my world up side down. your cry is my weakness, even a hero sometimes have to put his knee down in front of the enemy. but you’re not my enemy, even it has to… then you’ll be my favorite villain. hey am the hero here… then you are the princess. and your wish is my command…

shine…

spaunisdead — Thu, 11 Aug 2011 15:33:55 +0000

if only i own the sky, i’ll protect the world from the sadness with one big warm hug. i want to see the earth smile, cause she know there someone that always be there for her. yes i might be jealous to the moon, but it’s way suppose to be, there’s won’t be a night without him. even thought it tearing my heart apart, i just still couldn’t complain to the God for all the reasons. yes.. i am mad.. i sad.. and i cry for not able close to you. but i will keep my promise, i will always shine at day and fill the emptiness although it hurts so much…

end of line part one

spaunisdead — Sun, 07 Aug 2011 12:37:26 +0000

i thought i could lose my mind to suppress the stories that i leave behind, cause the faith won’t let me live this time. just say that i already dead. my soul is no longer in my mind, and my mind is already gone, and my feelings… it’s separated from my ego. am just a dead man walking. and empty shell that forced to catch up some dreams… i couldn’t longer heard the voice calling out my name. the catastrophe just begin, and there’s no more sanctuary for my even soul…

so am i stupid enough to be there for you?

spaunisdead — Sat, 06 Aug 2011 16:40:24 +0000

you call me when you’re alone, i’ll be there..

you call me when i was in the middle of something, i’ll be there..

you call me when your selfish boyfriend ignoring you, i’ll be there..

you call me when am dreaming, i’ll be there..

i’ll be there even just to hear you sing..

i’ll be there even you ask me to come back later..

i’ll be there even you mad at me without a reason..

i’ll be there even you just ignore me when i get there..

i’ll always be there for you..

go ahead…

spaunisdead — Sat, 06 Aug 2011 14:19:06 +0000

maybe you can just leave and walk away, but that scar would never be healed. just say that would be a mark about sacrifice and sincerity

desperate…

spaunisdead — Tue, 02 Aug 2011 15:13:17 +0000

if it wasn’t you.. i wouldn’t just say nothing

if it wasn’t you.. i would raise my head and look straight at the eye

if it wasn’t you.. i will do anything i want

and if it wasn’t you.. i won’t try this hard

what is the price of your pride?

spaunisdead — Mon, 01 Aug 2011 06:39:14 +0000

i’ll put this dream in the box, while wait you to realize the meaning of my words… this day i wouldn’t longer walk in the clouds, waiting the sun raise his head. you beat me down… maybe i would still with the world. but i will just stand still watching it from my sanctuary, because you know where to find me…

because of you

spaunisdead — Thu, 28 Jul 2011 17:05:36 +0000

i am not going to hurting myself when am disappointed… and i am also not going shout it loud to the world… am no longer brute person who release the anger inside without realizing the consequences. but is not that i don’t want to… but wan’t to be the same as the person who usually make you sad. i’ll be stand stood.. but that’s not because i don’t want to…

loveless

spaunisdead — Tue, 26 Jul 2011 20:09:54 +0000

it’s rain today… and i can’t keep myself from drowning… it’s all blue, no more tomorrow for this heart. am done… today would be my last day to see the rainbow